It has been so long since I’d posted here. I was completely lost in trying to figure out the new (maybe not really new? but new to me) dashboard layout. Any rate, I’m here. I suppose that I haven’t had any thing interesting or irritating to write about. I’m kind of a routine now that includes school, work, eat, sleep, repeat. I’m looking forward to this phase being over and I can see the light at the end of this tunnel, that is, until I turn into the next tunnel… The joy of pursuing a PhD I guess is that there are many different challenges, but once you get through one, the next is not exactly like the first so at least it’s not a lot of the same garbage.

On a side note, I do have a random statement about how rumors are started! I work at a hospital (still) and one of my friends who works at a building across the street from the same hospital says to me today all excitedly, “You don’t have to go to work today do you? You should not go to the hospital if you don’t have to! You know they’ve had a case of swine flu over there, don’t you?!”  Since I’ve been studying all morning, I hadn’t heard anything (and more importantly because there isn’t anything to hear.  Instead of rolling with the rumor, I asked her how she knew there was one because I didn’t hear of any reported cases in this state yet, and she says, well they sent it in our electronic work newsletter. Let me find it and forward it to you. She sends me a link to a site talking about how the hospital will be prepared to handle any cases if there are any to appear and that while they didn’t have any suspected or confirmed cases yet, that you should not go to the hospital unless you need treatment for something, anything. How does that translate to someone has been identified in one’s mind, I don’t know, but that’s the stuff of which rumors are made. And that’s not a cool one to perpetuate.

Anyway, I’m going to take my complaining self to work now and be a good worker.  Adios!

~CR

Aw man! I thought I was failing this one class I am taking and just realized that I’m not failing at all. I just thought I’d share that since that had been a major headache for the last 2 months.. Here’s to getting through finals without failing. *cheers!*

She said I’m MIA!! I KNOW MI “MF” A when I see it and that’s not me!! LOL (never mind me.. It’s one of my current rants that will need to be blogged elsewhere…)

Five names you go by

1. Constant (of course!)

2. Spanky (which is some ridiculousness the girl I call “Roommie” calls me. I don’t actually go by that but she continues to call me that anyway)

So I started by changing my background, as if that makes a difference. Strangely it does.

The last month has been very busy. I have finished my 5th term as a PhD student (5 of 6 for mandatory full time status), which is great. I am at work now and I thought I would begin this new term with some thoughts about new things I would like:

1. I would like some new shirts and slacks for work. My stuff is looking a little discolored these days! However I have no money. So I’ll move on to the next thing.

2. I have decided that I am going to do natural hair again. I actually have been pondering the idea for over a year and after my last unexpected hair cut, I am pondering no longer.   I remember when I decided to stop relaxing my hair the first time. I was in undergrad, and my mother was horrified.  She would constantly ask me when I was going to get my hair done again, warning that it would “break off” and do all this stuff.”  It actually never did any of that, although I had to put a lot of attention to it during the process. Not a big deal. I imagine if I hadn’t moved to Atlanta (which I never for a moment regret), or some other hot place, I would probably still have natural hair.  However, I had a horrible fight with my hair when I got down south, and decided that I couldn’t take it.  I’ve missed the versatility and softness though, and have decided to do it again.

3. I need a new exercise regimen. I have been very lazy lately, and it’s starting to show! So I am searching for some motivating ways to exercise. I have been walking to work and school the last couple of months when possible because that usually gives me about 40-60 minutes of walking, depending on the day. However, I think I’m in need of some higher intensity.  I met someone who does this hip-hop spin class that I might try. And since J appears to enjoy spinning, why not try it!  I’m sure I will die if I try that first though, LOL so I might need to work out before I go work out…

4. I need a new attitude. I’ve been kind of down lately and it’s a really simple reason, but more of a topic for a different entry. Suffice it to say that I need to stop worrying about what other people are doing and worry about what I’m doing. Or rather, not worry about what I’m not doing.  That made no sense, yet it’s accurate.

5. I need a (new) thesis topic.   It’s not looking so hot for my current topic and I have a proposal to write.. and stuff.

6. A (new) social life.  I have actually been working on this one, and making sure that I contact friends and do stuff with them, even if it isn’t often. I’m looking for quality over quantity, apparently. I feel like over the last year I alienated many of my friends, and I don’t want to wake up and be friend-less.. like I felt yesterday.  However it was just me being emotional and doesn’t reflect my true feelings about my situation.  I have been spending time with folks at school, and it has been very nice.  I have also been coming up with social activities (including one for next month where I will hopefully see my dear J, yay!), so that I won’t be sitting up in the house looking stupid.

7. A new family.  Ok, while I realize that I can’t pick and choose them, and I do really love them, but sometimes I just wish they had some stinking sense!  It’s a big family so I can’t say that EVERYONE doesn’t have sense, but when I think of some of the key characters, they are plum crazy.  (Interestingly) I wish that communication was better between folks.  I have set a Saturday 3-way talk time between my mom and sister and I which usually starts with me, my sister, and my nephews talking for an hour, then we’ll call my mom. It has been so much fun, and hopefully it will do something.  I am tired of being out of the loop.  They always say “Ooh I thought you already knew or that someone else had told you, that’s why I didn’t tell you.”  WELL THAT’S JUST DUMB!!  My dad, on the other hand, will likely always lack communication skills, and that’s just the way it is.  However, I’ll still call him at least every 2 weeks to talk about gunsmoke since he likes it so much.

Well that’s it for now.  Adios!

… randomness that looks something like this:

I mean, I’m not where I want to be, I have a lot of hurdles, and I might be slightly irritable to those who step on the right nerve. I might also have a gnat infestation that results in my having dreams about the quantity that I consume during my sleep (I’m sure I’ve eaten thousands… I kill tons each day), BUT I am just fine, and am pretty content.  My home is full of peace, and I am finally back to being my relaxed self.  Right now, I am listening to music, doing a literature search, killing gnats, and typing, and having what I’d call a very pleasant night.  Since the last post, I have moved to a one bedroom apartment away from my not-so-best friend Colby (the dog), and I haven’t missed him ONE BIT. I don’t think I’ll ever have a dog. I’ll go visit him though because he get so excited when I come by. I might even bring the cat.  I’m sure she’d hate me forever for that… Maybe I’ll bring him to her so she can hiss and slap him like old times. However, not to offend any of my dog-lover friends, but yipity-yip was just not for me.  He’s a cute little annoying thing, but I can do without the cat and dog fighting constantly, and his funk, and my cat is visually happier.  I’m so sorry for putting her through the misery. LOL

I think I have 3 jobs to pay my ridiculous rent, and that is going surprisingly well.  I still love one of them which make all of the others worth it.  I can’t wait until the day I don’t have to hustle so for the ends. But until then, that’s the way it is.

I am back in school, and am just trying to be as focused on my goals for the year.

I’ve also decided that I actually might want to date again one day. I mean not today.  Not tomorrow. But some day.  I wasn’t sure I’d come to that conclusion but I can’t deny the world of my wonderfulness forever. lol

I saw Ms J last month for a few hours. It was so nice to see her. Hopefully we will get a chance to visit for real soon where we can sit and chill (maybe she’ll bring her little booty down to Baltimore…).

What else?  I don’t know. Time is up. Gotta go back to work.

~CR