Constant Rain
More random rants, thoughts, and impromptu storiesArchive for September, 2006
Um..
I thought I’d just highlight the fact that I just left an extra long rant on Sara Jane’s blog. Sorry, Sara jane. lol
AND, so you don’t hear from me in a week and I post ten bajillion things and you’re like, why is she still posting, especially about randomness that doesn’t mean anything?!?
SO!! 
NAH!
Some more…
I clearly am not working tonight…
1.When is the last time you held hands with someone?
Last night… He was 16 months old.
2. If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?
Prolly not? I mean, although I like to mentally slap people around, I’m not so down for killing people. Dont’ think I’d be too good at it.
3. Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
No, actually
4. Have you ever won a spelling competition?
Yes I used to be a great speller. Not sure what happened.
5. How fast can you type?
Last I was timed it was around 70 words/minute but I think it’s faster now.
6. Are you afraid of the dark?
Nope
7. Eye color?
A sort of lighter brown.
8. When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
Also last night.
9. Do you knock on wood?
Yeah if I’m at a door and hoping for someone to open it.
10. Are you drinking anything right now?
No, but now that you mention it, I’m am right thirsty.
11. Do you think you’re attractive?
Sometimes.
12. Can you hoola hoop?
For a few seconds. I told you, the whole coordination thing just isn’t my strength.
13. Are you good at keeping secrets?
Yes.
14. What do you want for Christmas?
Love and happiness. I’ll probably get it in the CD form…
15. Do you know the Muffin Man?
Who dat?
16. Do you talk in your sleep?
I used to while I was in undergrad, apparently. I live alone now, and Sandy doesn’t complain about me talking to myself, so I don’t know.
17. Who wrote the book of love?
Is there such a book?!?
18. Have you ever flown a kite?
Yes.
19. Do you consider yourself successful?
Define successful. I mean, I’m ok. That’s sucess in itself, i think. No?
20. How many people are on your contact list of your cell?
Maybe around 70? Well that might include a few restaurants, so let’s take that down to about 65. Don’t act like i’m the only one with restaurant telephone numbers in my cell.
21. Have you ever asked for a pony?
No?
22. Plans for tomorrow?
Work.
23. Missing someone now?
Nope. I’m actually not in so much of a friendly/loving mood so there it is.
24. When was the last time you told someone ‘I love you’?
Um. *thinking real hard* Let me get back to you on that one.
25. How are you feeling today?
Well physically I feel ok, with exception of that strange leg thing I have going on. I’m emotionally in a strange place though. I blame work.
26. Are happy with your life right now?
I don’t know. (which probably means no, but I don’t want to say no).
27. Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
I don’t think so.
28. What are you looking forward to?
Finishing this paper I’m writing for work.
29. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yeah, actually. How pecular is that??
30. Have you ever eaten dog food?
I mean, I was a curious child…
31. Can you handle the truth?
Probably not, but I’d rather deal with it than some garbage.
32. Do you like green eggs and ham?
What?
33. What 3 things do you always bring with you to places?
my computer, a hair clip, and some lip gloss. I know.. ridiculous. Leave me alone.
34. Any cool scars?
I dont’ think scars are cool. I have a discoloration on my back though. it’s about the size of a nickel.
35. Do you like or have a crush on anyone?
Nope.
36. How many kids do you plan on having?
I am not planning to have any at the current time because I’m just not in the place where I can realistically think about that. I think it’s stupid to think about. Sorry, I told you I was being evil today.
37. What do you do when no one is watching?
Sing.
38. Have you ever been in love?
Yes
39. Do you talk to yourself?
Yep
40. Is there something you want that you can’t have?
Not at this second.
41. Things about the opposite sex that you first notice?
i don’t know. I don’t like men today. Please dont’ make me talk about them in a favorable manner.
42. What are you thinking about right now?
How annoyed I am.
43. Who did you last hug?
My sandy. She gets a hug when I get home every day because she likes it.
44. Who did you last kiss?
Where?? I mean, i kissed the baby last night.
45. Where is your phone?
I’ve got one in the living room next to the couch and in my bedroom next to my bed. Only God knows where my cell phone is.
46. What was the last thing you ate?
Ooh I had a turkey sandwich for lunch. I’d actually slap someone for a turkey sandwish right now. RIGHT NOW!
47. Favorite Color?
Light blue!
48. What is the last movie watched?
Super size me. Does that count??
49. What song do you currently hear?
I’m not playing music right now, and WCRX is not playing anything.
50. What do you want?
Stability.
51. Would you ever date anyone on your friends list?
Again?? I’ve dated the guys on my friends list that i’ve actually met and aren’t gay. Which doesn’t say a whole lot about how many friends I have. Or maybe it says it all…
8 facts/things/habits about me
Because I’m the only one that didn’t do this, it seems… 
1-2. Although I speak so generally about my work mostly because I don’t desire to get fired, many of you probably already know that I’m involved in public health research with some agency in Georgia, but I’m a health education specialist by trade, whatever the hell that means. The experience has been pretty decent thus far, but I feel like I’m almost at a place where my growth and development is being stunted by all of these mundane tasks that I have to do… All these tasks that keep me from blogging.
3. lol I love food so much, and I always wanted to be a cook, although I have never taken a cooking class. I thought if I had some time or in a future life, I’d take a formal cooking class.
4. Similarly, I always am trying to force some artsy activity into my life, although I’m not so much of an artsy character. I’m facinated by artists, which is why I like this gal and this gal so much. Ok, I lied, that’s not WHY I like either of them, but I think they’re cool, so there it is. Anyway, I’d like to find a way to balance the scientific stuff, and as soon as I’m not broke, I’m hoping to take music lessons again. I don’t really like group music education activities.
5. I have dreams about people when I haven’t spoken to them in a while or sometimes randomly and when I call them soon after having the dream, the person often says, “Oh I’m so glad you called.. blah blah blah.. I needed someone to talk to.” You might not understand the significance of this, as I am not sure that it is all that “significant” per se. lol But I will often begin a conversation with, “You know what? I had a dream you were in last night.” It always throws people off, but FYI doesn’t mean that I’m lusting after you if I tell you that in the future, nor does it mean that you’re about to drive over a cliff and I’ve forseen it. It just seems to mean that you’re on my over active mind.
6. In my own self diagnosis, I’ve decided that I have a pulled hamstring and that I’m going to seek medical attention because it keeps randomly tightening. This wasn’t really a problem, except that it didn’t feel all that great, until last night because it occurred while I was driving and I almost swerved into oncoming traffic on a dark two lane road in the Atlanta suburbs. I stopped as soon as I came to a well lit area and after a little stretching and such, proceeded, while talking on the phone to my friend Pete, and yelling every time I would have a sharp pain in my leg. That can’t be a good thing. It’s certainly not a “cute” thing.
7. Lately I’ve been an extra nervous person. Like with nervous habits that include clinching my teeth, having mini anxiety attacks where I can’t breathe, and more. It’s a wonder I still have hair on my head (which is, for Scribe’s info, since he LOOOOVES the hair discussions, in decent condition these days… lol). Now that I think about it, I might want to mention that to the doctor as well…
8. I don’t dance well at all. I mean, I’ve got the beat, but the moves just aren’t really all that tight. I’ve always been really shy about dancing and I probably haven’t given myself the practice that I need to bust a move on the dance floor. And suddenly I feel like we’re in the 80s…
If you haven’t done this yet, do play along. Be as slow as I was, if you’d like.
My recent transformation
Well, after almost 11 months of living with Sandy, I think I’ve finally become a cat owner. We were well and good before now, and I certainly do care for my kitty quite a bit. And it saddens me to think of anything being wrong with her, even if it is a small eye infection. However, I must admit that I didn’t handle my cat terribly much. Don’t get me wrong. She was showered with affection daily, being played with, and petted (at her preference and as she pleased, of course), and we went through our bed time positions that included some that resulted in me inadvertently rolling over her because she’d snuggle in so close, but I have always let her have her space. However, after mopping up runny poo that was streaked out of the litter box upon exit, a few spew clean ups in the living room, and a whole lot of tussling back and forth in attempt to get her to take the oral liquid and pill medications and thick eye cream applied directly to the eye ball– all in one weekend, I think I’m finally a “real” pet owner. It certainly has it’s glorious moments, and she isn’t a new thrower-upper in the home. I mean, with the long hair and all, I had long bought a mini carpet cleaner for times as special as these. But now, more than anything, I realize that I have to make it my duty to make sure she’s ok. And I don’t have a problem with that, I’m just saying that it was a realization I guess I hadn’t had. Yesterday I found myself annoyed with her trying to break free from me while I was trying to stuff her medicine in her mouth, so I flung her over my arm and cut her nails on the spot. I hadn’t been successful in cutting all 16 nails (she’s got a messed up back paw) in one setting, or a month of settings, actually, since I got her, but I was damned if she was going anywhere before I finished. I guess I was so timid with her because I thought she’d bite or scratch me, and I didn’t want to cross that line. I don’t know. But if the weekend hasn’t shown me anything else, it has shown me that Sandy and I will be ok no matter what. This morning, I applied her ointment, and to my surprise, she didn’t even budge. I even got a chance to rub it in (closing her eye, and distributing the ointment). I just gave her the other two medicines, and she’s still sitting here next to me (which is an improvement from Friday, believe me, because she’d be hidden somewhere trying to evade her scary predator), AND she swallowed the pill. Well, i held her until I was sure that it has dissolved in her mouth, which was about 10 minutes, and she couldn’t spit it out, because I’m sure she was holding it in her cheek because she’s very good at that. I was expecting to find it stuck somewhere in my hair or something, but it appears to have been ingested. It also appears that she now realizes that I’m not trying to kill her. Perhaps she knew that already because I don’t have one scratch, or bite considering everything, nor has she hissed at me once. I just can’t wait until she’s her old playful self again.
Pause please…
I must interrupt our current discussion to rant. Well sort of. You all know I adore my kitty. Yesterday when I woke up I noticed her little right eye was a little crusty. I wiped it away, thinking that was strange but perhaps was nothing to be concerned about. I came back last night after work to find it with a nice little film over it and she was trying not to open it. 
So I called the vet first thing in the morning, and to my relief she would not need to come in, BUT they suspect that she has an infection and prescriped a bunch of meds. I am of course going to give her these THREE medicines (an ointment, a liquid, and a pill), but I really don’t know how it’s going to go down. I’ve read some articles, books, and gotten tips from the vet but I swear, San is a different cat around other people. She won’t even sit still for me to clip her nails, let alone give her some medicine? Put ointment in her eye??? TWICE a day?? I went home and rounded her up, and tried to put the ointment in her eye. I got a little in there, but she went nuts! She finally calmed down enough (not to come near me but to go get some food that had a mickey mixed up with it), and she didn’t seem to notice. I still have to give her the pill though. Any tips from blog land?? Help!
More thoughts
I had several things in my mind that I wanted to blog about over the last few days but I have just been so busy. I will catch up on the tags though because I like those. J
Anyway, I just had a long conversation with my friend N about how I much I’d like to have a personal editor. I mention that from time to time on here, and I swear, having a second pair of eyes to look over my writing would be so incredibly helpful!! I consider myself having a pretty good attention to detail when it comes to some things, but writing is unfortunately not one of them. I am terrible with proofreading. N says maybe I should work on that, and I don’t disagree. MY thing is that there are people out here in the world that are exceptionally good at catching written mistakes, making it their mission to review newspaper articles to find the slightest error, rejoicing after finding each new item. I’m not that person, but that’s great for them. That’s why I need to EMPLOY someone with that ability so that I won’t have to. I don’t think that everyone needs to be able to do everything, especially in a work environment, and this might just be the current organization of the field that I’m in that influences my opinion, as everything is done in teams, and each person brings different skills to the table. At the end of this conversation N says, “Well that’s all great and everything, but you just don’t have it like that.” And suddenly I have no idea why I’m even talking about this anyway. *sigh*
So I’ve been meaning to talk about a sermon from my church service on Sunday. I love this church. I however am not a member of the church, and haven’t been since the last one I attended in MI. I suppose I could go into the why, etc but that isn’t the topic. Anyway, each time I go, or when I listen to messages online, I always find myself agreeing with the pastor, and he often gives more clarity to certain situations. Sunday’s message was the beginning of a series on controversial topics, this one regarding war, just in time for the 9/11 commemoration. He talked about how war isn’t new, and how there always has been war and how there will always be war. Although I don’t necessarily like that statement, it’s probably true, so no real disagreement there. He continued to give examples of war in the bible. At this point he showed a very disturbing video on the extent of hatred against the US in the world, showing hundreds of people chanting “death to America” similar to images seen during the Hitler regime, and he made this comparison. He stressed the fact that the media doesn’t adequate cover of the extent of disdain for the US and that this pure hatred will eventually erupt in some awful conflict because the hatred is so strong and persistent. When you have a group that is intent on cleansing the earth of groups of people, there is a serious problem that can not be ignored. In fact, they won’t allow you to ignore the problem. He then says that it is important to support your leader and authority figures no matter what. People that are anointed for a certain position need the support of the people around them in order to make a difference or to be a substantial force against others. He admonished specifically speaking against president Bush because he needs our support. He lost me on his next few points, but before I even go on, what do you think about that?
Ok, ok!
GRR!!! AHH!! I just wrote this long post and it didn’t publish!! Just the title published!! Now I’m out of time, and I’m mad. Maybe I’ll post later.
From K’s blog
Before I go down as the one that doesn’t respond to tags…
1. Things that scare me
Road ragers
Religious extremists
White people in the rural south (sorry???)
2. People who make me laugh
My mom- she’s such a hoot
My friends N, J, and Pete
3. Things I hate the most:
Liars
Inconsiderate behavior
Selfishness
4. Things I don’t understand
Why I’m so unfocused
Why it’s so easy to respond to disasters and problems in other countries but no so much in this country.
Men
5. Things I’m doing right now
Drinking hot chocolate because i can’t find my coffee maker in the sea of unpacked boxes
Work stuff
6. Things I want to do before I die
Travel more
Find a career I can be content with that actually accomplishes something
Find contentment in general no matter what my life circumstances are.
7. Things I can do
(I’m not feeling like i can do much all that well lately, but since it doesn’t say “what can you do well”)
… still nothing. I guess I’ll get back to you on that one when I have some self esteem.
8. Ways to describe my personality
Silly and playful yet very serious
Sensitive
A bit grouchy and irritable yet not mean
9. Things I can’t do
Focus
Stay awake 3 hours without wanting to go back to sleep
Get out of my labor day funk
10. Things I think you should listen to
Silence occasionally, and enjoy it
The ocean or other large bodies of water
Oh and that cheesy seventies music K doesn’t think you should listen to… I love cheesy 70s music.
11. Things you should never listen to
Bush’s nonsense mumblings
People who don’t respect you
12. Things I’d like to learn
How to be more productive
How to speak another language
How to paint or something else creative and fun like that.
13. Favorite foods
Enchiladas, rice, and beans, of course.
Thai food in general
Cheesecake factory, like the entire menu with exception of the crab and shrimp. including desserts.
14. Beverages I drink regularly
Water
Crystal Kroger, as I call it
Bad coffee at work
15. Shows I watched as a kid
Cosby show, 8pm thursdays.
Brady bunch, faithfully M-F at 4:35, because it was TBS. lol!! Why was that logical anyway??
Cartoons- Looney Tunes (same channel, M-F 6:35, lol), smurfs (saturdays at 9am). The random assed things you remember. If i could get myself to remember some HIV related stuff in that same manner, I might feel a little better.
My new thing- Muscadine grapes
I had a pretty good day today. I mentioned to J that I had some crack today. In addition, I’ve discovered a new fruit, well new to me. Apparently my mother was up on these many years ago as she used to eat them often when she lived in the south. Each Friday at my job because they want to promote health and such, there is a guy that brings his farmer’s market to our parking lot, selling produce all day long. It’s great because I usually grab some fruit to snack on during the day and over the weekend, or maybe a pepper or two for dinner. The prices aren’t always that wonderful depending on the item, but still not being typical grocery store prices. I walked down with a few coworkers, one that was in pursuit of these things. She had one with her, and was asking us, the other two, what they were because she wasn’t born in the U.S. and she thought we’d know. We both had never seen them before, but apparently they are native to the southeastern US, and come in a host of varieties. Once I tasted them, I was instantly hooked! They were so delicious! They take a bit of work to consume because the skin is so thick that one generally wouldn’t want to eat it, and they have a few seeds. Try them!
