Constant Rain
More random rants, thoughts, and impromptu storiesArchive for October, 2006
My love
*dancing*
Well, I’m still around. I have been on helping my friend for the last couple of weeks and staying at her home watching her little one. I’ve actually had quite a pleasant time, but in the meantime I’ve gotten so behind on work. Like so ridiculously so. I’m going to go to work and just be like, “I ain’t got it…” Just like that. And then I’ll probably get fired on the spot. I don’t think I’ll be able to get sleep for the next week.
So what better time is there to blog?!?
In other news, I went to Columbus, GA which was almost scary. I’ll have to talk about that more another time. I didn’t take any pictures or anything, but the pictures would definitely be a better illustration of why it was scary. Let’s just say it was a perfect illustration of why I’m not so fond of the south, with all its “negative” (depending on who you’re asking) history connected to it. But I went there with my friend and her baby to take care of him while she was at a conference, and I had a really nice time. I mean not nice enough to get on the first “I want a baby now” wagon, but enough to really appreciate all the hard work you mothers do. It really is a lot, but it is very rewarding, or so they tell me. 
*repeating song*
*continue dancing*
Ok, for like the last hour I’ve had the last song released by JT (I’m using abbreviations so that I won’t get 1000 hits to my page because I mentioned his name, lol) on repeat. I’ll probably be singing it in my sleep.
Speaking of sleep, I have to tell you all this. I had a DREAM about a fellow blogger!! LOL! Well, there were two bloggers in the dream. I was hanging out with J somewhere I don’t even know where, but there were dorms there, but it wasn’t a school. I remember asking her what this place was, and she said that she stayed there sometimes, and showed me her room. Surprisingly, next door to her was Scribe, who saw us coming out of her room and invited us in to see his quarters. I was sitting there talking to him when my friend Will called me on my phone. I ignored his call, and I guess he was playing the jealous boyfriend in the dream because he somehow knew where I was and stormed up there to find out who I was with. I saw him through Scribe’s door and got scared because I knew how crazy and dangerous he was when he was mad (my friend Will, who isn’t actually like that but was in the dream). So I was afraid for J and me to leave Scribe’s room. I thought he would conclude that something kinky was going on in there and then abuse me or something. I was trying to see if we could slip out of the window when I woke up. That dream was strange on way too many levels.
*still dancing* (I’m sure my neighbors are ready to kill me) *repeating song again*
I spent a couple of hours today looking through old pictures that I found in a box I was about to throw away. I hadn’t opened this box in at least 3 years, and I figured that I must not need anything in it. I decided that I was curious though, and decided to at least look in it and found pictures I thought I left at my mother’s house that were from as far back as high school. There were pictures of J in a variety of cities. I ended up looking through all of them, thinking about the good times I’ve had with all of my friends. We used to have a lovely time. Sometimes I hate living all the way down here, but I’ve met wonderful people everywhere I have gone, and will hopefully continue to do so. I might want to do a little more to keep in contact with those wonderful people, but that’s another story.
The picture above is from this stack of pictures. It was taken in the summer of 1998 along Lake Superior in Michigan. I wish it had scanned clearer, but that will have to do. And I think it’s quite tranquil, and I miss Michigan today, so there it is.
I’m going to start on the Southbeach diet again. I haven’t gained any weight, but after hurting my hamstring, I haven’t been able to exercise. I am not getting any closer to my fitness goals, which include losing a few more pounds. I purchased and read a little Southbeach Good Fats, Good Carbs guide this weekend, and it’s easy to follow. As my “terrible diet farewell” I decided to get some Chinese food with steamed rice, jelly bellies, and grape juice.
Ok, must go to work. I hope you all are doing well.
~CR
Sell by date
I’m having another one of my random thought moments that usually occur when I should be working (and right now I should be working on those school applications I mentioned a minute ago). I woke up this morning to some slightly brisk weather for Atlanta, and i have to mention that there are notable differences in how the weather affects the temperature of the home. Now according to yahoo, the temperature was in the low 40s, maybe a hair lower but it was just down right cold inside my apartment. So I decided to get up and make some delicious flavored coffee I purchased yesterday and make some breakfast. I’m having a grand old time when I realized that the coffee creamer I have has a sell date of April 2006, the milk’s sell date was 10/22 (although it was a little questionable smelling as if within hours it would smell like hot asshole), the eggs sell date was 9/14, the cream of wheat (because I decided against the eggs, then against cold cereal because of the suspicious milk, but I was willing to use a drop of the milk to cream up some hot cereal) sell date was 6/06, and the list really does go on. Clearly I need to clean out my refridgerator and cabinets. This is obvious. My question is though, how long after the sell date should you use some of these items? I’m not expecting it to be that date because it is the sell date, and I think the answer is obvious for stuff like milk that turns into hot mess shortly after. But what about eggs??? My mom claims that you can eat eggs months after the sell date, and I’m just not ready to take that chance unless I see that supported emperically. lol And I used the creamer for the coffee, but it was extra clumpy and didn’t really do the job (however it could be argued that is because it is the Kroger brand, which is not great anyway). What says you? (Or I mean, I could just be nuts, and should just throw my old mess away. lol!!)
~RR
Old faithful
After another conversation with my friend N, I am left wondering how I got to where I am right now with relationships (Instead of working… I mean I am working, I’m just taking a break before a 3 hour meeting!). We were talking about how men see me in relationships, and how she thinks that I’m “old faithful” that they keep coming back to when they need something/someone stable that they know will be waiting right there for them once they’ve exhausted their options. Another friend just this weekend said that I am too accomodating and that I just let men do any old thing without any consequences. Now, do I think these things are true? I’m not sure, but I’m thinking about it. Some time or another I just stopped caring. Like I don’t get bothered by much that men do, or maybe I just have this extra huge shield up these days because of some fear of expecting too much from someone and being let down. I think more than anything at all that I just don’t have the energy to care anymore. I used up all my caring energy and for some reason it has not been replenished. So, how do I replenish that??
Life after holidays
I had the hardest time getting my act together this morning to go to work. I was laying in my bed trying to come up with an illness to fake for the day. Finally I decided that i was happy to actually be feeling good and would get my lazy butt up and go to work. Good thing I did as I have tons of stuff to do and couldn’t really afford to get any more behind than I am already. I wish I had something interesting to post about. I don’t even have a dumb A$$ to laugh at. Well I haven’t looked for one, actually. There is always SOMEONE saying something stupid out there in the world.
I had such a lovely day yesterday laying in bed with my cat watching TV and playing on the internet, being completely unproductive. I went out shopping for a while, which was also nice because I now have lots of food in the house, and I love to eat.
And that’s it. No rants, no nothing. I’m such a bore lately. Ooh ooh. I am on my way out of town again. I’m going to Memphis this weekend (sorry J… I really am trying to come that way too before the end of the year…) for a close cousin’s wedding. I’m just driving over there though, and it shouldn’t be an expensive weekend at all. I’m looking forward to even a day out of town, and actually going to the country, where I haven’t been in several years. I’ll have to take pictures if I remember my camera this time.
Ok, Bye!
Still among the living
Yeah, I’m still here. It has been a few minutes since I’ve posted anything of any interest mostly because I haven’t really been on the computer, how difficult that may be to believe for anyone that actually knows me. So because I don’t want to go through every little detail of the last month, I’ll just list some highlights:
(not necessarily in chronological order as that would make more sense than I’m accustomed to making)
1. I just got back from Michigan this morning. Flew up there on Friday and I actually had a lovely time with the exception of this stupid head cold that I have.
2. Note to self, if I don’t have to fly with a head cold, don’t. I didn’t actually have much of a choice this time as I had to come home but I thought my head was going to explode for the last 30 minutes of the flight.
3. I didn’t visit nearly as many people as I had planned to visit while I was at home, but it was quality time with those who I did spend time with.
4. I am contemplating moving back to Michigan.
5. I had an interesting interview for a job in Michigan that, if offered, would strongly affect that decision.
5. I got another job down in Atlanta, yet I obviously haven’t accepted it yet because I’m waiting to hear from the other. This one is nice too though.
6. I told my mom about that job mentioned in #5 as I’m relaying the “good news” or at least I think it’s good news and she says, “well how much would you make with that job?”
CR: “XX,XXX.”
Mom: pause ………. “Well you should still go back to school. That’s not any real money.”
CR:.. Still waiting on the “congratulations for being selected out of a large, competitive pool of applicants for this position that is clearly an improvement from your current temporary one.”
7. I finally realized how I got to be so pessimistic and what some people would call “humble.” I’m not really humble though; I just don’t know how to articulate that which I do well or things like that because I am always thinking that it could be better.
8. I didn’t do one bit of work while i was in Michigan, so now I’m extra swamped. However I can enjoy the fact that my being swamped at least where I am is sooooo temporary.
9. I decided to stop in at some 10 year HS reunion events. It was interesting, yet strangely stupid at the same time. It was nice to see some people, and I noted how some people have aged quite poorly. I reveled in my foxiness because I’m an asshole.
10. That’s it. Nothing else to see here! If I come up with something, I’ll add it.
~CR
**ADDITION**
11. It appears from the comments that thy minister would like me to tell you that I met him in his chambers after my 20 hour interview for a tasty beverage. I was tired and loopy but thy minister was calm and pleasant.
Note: No disrespect intended, Rev. I just didn’t want your Internet entourage thinking I was trying to steal you on the sly! LMAO!!
